I will marry my bestfriend soon

we met 10 years ago masa tu kami berjiran. berjiran means his room betul2 sebelah my room. sharing the same dinding orang kata. since then we're close. we went for a movie together, jalan2 together with no intention of falling in love. then we did. i cant remember well but it was during Form 4. One year together, happy momet kononnya cinta monyet gitu.

then things dont went well. he screwed up and i left. tapi since kitorang jiran and our mum especially my mum tak suka kitorang bergaduh, it took me awhile untuk tegur balik and befriend balik. we went our separate ways, but never once kitorang lost contact dengan alasan he is my bestfriend.

setiap kali single, mesti dia orang first akan cucuk jarum and i will definitely say no to him. so he waited for nearly 8 years. a lot of things happen on us. i went through my biggest grown up break up followed by him ( dua-dua fail in love).

strange things happen when he contacted me during his 6 month camp, he calls me and we talked every twice a month? macam kawan biasa nothing unusual. but i know he loves me and i still love him too. ego perempuan macam ni la mana nak mengaku. berlagak je tabah.

i know he went thru his biggest break up too. dia punya lagi teruk la actually. and i try to comfort him. he seems strong and redha tapi tau je dia sedih gaban. nevertheless, plus minus this and that, i decided to give him a chance. bukan sebab sympathy tapi at one time, rasa hati terbuka untuk terima.
and here we are counting months for our big day soon. insyaallah semoga dipermudahkan

my lesson are:

1) jangan berlagak tak suka tak suka. mama selalu marah sebab asyik cakap tak suka dia tak suka dia. last last tersuka teruk. hahaha this one is real

2) jangan riak sangat. i once said to everyone atin taknak kahwin! atin nak single! for a few more years till 27 sebab nak travel nak business! nak jadi successful women. never ever riak macam tu. in one month Allah swt changed me. nasib baik changed for good. alhamdulillah

3) don't hesitate. jangan teragak-agak. kalau yakin jawab yakin, kalau tak jawab tak. in my case, we're already love each other tapi masing2 with the wrong person all these years. baru nak sedar pun. haha

4) do not underestimate one true love. this one with the fact that he likes me and never give up for the last 8 years. and i love him secretly for the last 8 years. i was too afraid.  takut friendship kitorang hancur lagi.


the end. happy reading guys.

LOVE : Didn't see this one coming

so this one coming thru like getting hit by a tanked lorry, hit me like 'Oh Shit is this even real?'

one fine day he would do his stuff, pick up line and so on. And i warned him cakap

 "tak payah mengarut eh nanti aku tak selesa". 

and yes we're bestfriend. my male bestfriend since high school. this year marked our 10th year of friendship. literally we've known each other since we're 13. 

and how the hell did it happen? mulut cabui (cabul) ni pergi cakap 

"kalau kau serius pergi lah tanya mama, aku tak ada masa nak bercintq main2 dah. buang masa buang duit buat apa. lagi tambah dosa"

SUPRISINGLYYYYY..... (i dont expect this to happen) he did it! 

it took us a month to plan and get back in love with each other on last Ramadhan. we decided to keep the secret sampai habis internship (this December) but things went crazy and we spill the beans right on Hari Raya. ingatkan family akan terkejut yes the did terkejut tapi everyone seems so happily accept our proposal of having a serious relationship. 

supposely the plan is to get engaged on next March (his birthday) and again the family got excited and wants us to get engaged as soon as possible. 

and there you go. he ASKED and i said YES!